Life can drag you in so many directions at times. Last year was sort of a quiet year for me – I had an interesting but otherwise mellow work, and my family went about their businesses as usual. This year, everything gets thrown around and nothing will ever be the same – I hate changes, and there had been so many changes in our lives lately that it’s nervewrecking to say the least.
It started with my older brother moving out. It was not a big deal, but it did sort of falls as the first thing in this cascade of events that unfold before my eyes; then my oldest brother and his wife, as I’ve mentioned, moved back to the house. My sister in law is staying here as a visitor and prevented her from doing much (since she can’t drive out), which led her to mild depressions and digestive problems.
Then my father got sued by one of his former customers for no good reason at all – we just brought home a 136 page document days ago that consist of nothing but lawyers going back and forth about nonsense and 3 pages about my father, and now the whole family is involved – and I mean extended family – and I mean we don’t even do stuff together usually except to observe Chinese and American holidays and stuff. Until the mess is sorted out, discussion about the case is now a nightly event and arguments about it every other event.
As if that’s not enough, my mom’s factory is finally closing its doors after about a year of struggling – mom used to be quite cheerful about it, it was hard work but there were lots of good times she’d share with us every now and then. Then it had slowly fallen on hard times… and after operating for 27 years that place will be no more. Not exactly tear jerking for most, but it will affect our sources of income…
And finally, my work should really be picking up the pace right now, but I just can’t seem to find the energy to do it. My boss is currently busy planning and directing another project, so everything is left on my shoulders (and nobody is there to share it). On the one hand, nobody hassles me about my progress, so there’s no external pressure… but time is ticking and it’s not ticking in my favor. I don’t like the way this is going and this is not one of the things I can get out while the getting is good…
Well, at least there’s nothing to complain about the new computer. Although the cable connection had been crapping up lately, so my gaming experience is not perfect afterall. I think over the past few months, I’ve relearned the brutal truth of Murphy’s Law once again. Well, I think we can pick up most of the pieces and move on; whatever doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, right?
So I hope.